News at Eleven - A Novel (The Prequel to Heartland News and Mysteries)

Chapter 1

News at Six

Clisty Sinclair froze as she stared into the monitor. It can’t be her. It’s been too long.

The television camera zoomed in as Clisty’s eyes filled with tears. Shaken, she was numb to the fact that viewers were watching her relive a terrible memory.

The news director’s expression widened. “Go on!” she mouthed.

Clisty felt nine years old again, frantically grabbing her friend’s hand. But, in the desperate tug-of-war with evil, the muscular man won and dragged her friend away.

She composed herself. “Help police find the witness visible on the ATM’s surveillance camera,” she reported. “Call 555-2020. Let’s roll that again.” Clisty stopped breathing as she watched the jerky video. A huge figure in dark clothes ran from the bank, nearly knocking down a disheveled woman. The woman paid no attention to him, but focused on the ATM. At the surveillance camera, she looked directly into it with guarded, anxious eyes.

“Those eyes,” Clisty murmured.

Dan Drummond, the senior anchor, waited as Clisty remained silent. Finally Drummond intervened. “Well, that’s the news from the Fort. WFT-TV ... Fort Wayne, Indiana. More news at eleven.”

“Good show, people.” Rebecca Landers waved her arms in the air.  “Everything all right?” she asked Clisty.

“Sure Becca.” But, she muttered, “It can’t be her.”

“Who?” Becca jerked the headset from her ears and handed it to her assistant. “Here, George, stow these until eleven, please.”

“No one. Just my imagination,” Clisty whispered then changed the subject. “Maybe they’ll find that witness in time for the eleven o’clock news.”

“Maybe, but that’s only four hours from now. It could happen, if she walks into police headquarters by herself,” Becca answered. “What happened up there?”

“Nothing,” she brushed the question off.

“Don’t forget the envelope for Clisty.” George put the headset on the desk. “I’m going to run out. I’ll be back.”

“What envelope?” Clisty asked as she stood up slowly.

“Fellow said his name was Phil and left it for you,” George called over his shoulder.

“You’re slowing down. Are you okay? I’ll call a stand-in.”

“No, Becca, don’t do that. I don’t want someone else to look good. I still have to prove myself.” She had risen from intern, to fill-in, to junior-anchor in record time. “I don’t want anyone to think they made a mistake in hiring me.”

“Okay, but you need to talk about it.”

“Hello there, news lady,” a tall man in blue jeans and tan long-sleeve V-neck tee said as he waited just outside the studio glass.

“Jake?” Clisty couldn’t believe it was Detective Davis. Out of navy blue suit, dress shirt and tie, she hardly recognized him.

He grinned warmly. “I was changing from my work clothes and had your six o’clock newscast on.” He bent down and studied her face. “Miss Sinclair, you had an unusual reaction when you were reporting on the bank robbery. What happened? What’s going on?”

Clisty looked away. “Nothing.”

He touched her shoulder and reassured her; his usual prickly pear manner softened. “I’m not interrogating you. I’m just asking.”

The warmth of his hand was something she hadn’t expected. This was the same old Jake Davis as the edgy detective she had encountered at other crime scenes, why did he suddenly rattle her so? She knew she had to slow down to get some professional distance between them. “I have to sort this out in my own mind first, Detective. Maybe I’ll call the police station tomorrow.”

“Maybe?” he asked with a twinkly.

Overwhelmed by what she had seen in the video, now even the mere presence of Jake Davis confused her. Gripped by double-edged tension, she felt like she couldn’t breathe as tears gathered in her eyes and began to roll down her cheeks. This time she looked away from the man she had pleasantly bumped into at several remote news cast and she closed her eyes.

Jake didn’t hesitate. He put his arms around her, enclosing her in his embrace and didn’t let go.

Her heart raced, first because she knew she saw Faith, second because … of Jake. His new unfiltered approach thrilled her; she felt safe. Finally, after a wonderful but awkward span of seconds, Clisty reluctantly pulled away from his warmth and fixed her eyes on the floor. “I have to leave, Jake. “I’ll figure this out and call the station tomorrow.”

“Be sure to ask for me if you think of anything,” he said softly, stroking her shoulder. “With this bank robbery thing, I’m going back to the precinct for a while now.”

“Okay, and yes, I’ll ask for you,” she promised. As tears flooded her eyes, a tissue from her pocket saved her makeup. Why was she reacting so strangely to this man? She didn’t want to look at him and didn’t want to look away. When their eyes met, a new feeling flooded in. Minutes before, despair filled her as she remembered the horrible day when someone kidnapped Faith. Now, the warmth of hope rushed in and bolstered her spirits again.

She had to control all those emotions, the same as she controlled everything, until she could figure it all out. She turned, cleared her voice and changed the subject. “Becca, George said you have a letter for me?” Clisty asked.

Rebecca withdrew the message from her hip pocket. “Here ya go. Hope I didn’t wrinkle it.”

Clisty pushed dark blond hair from her forehead and studied the envelope. The handwriting looked familiar and yet not. “There’s a pot of coffee at my apartment. Can you run out with me for a while? I think I’d better eat something. I’m shaking.”

“Sure. We have nothing until eleven.”

• • • • •

“Looks like you painted last weekend,” Becca observed as she walked around Clisty’s living room. “It’s still white though isn’t it?”

“No. It’s cream,” Clisty insisted.

“Cream?” Becca said with a wry smile. “Maybe off-white ... but, not cream.” She studied the pictures clustered above the sofa. “The girl on the right looks like you.” The gangly girl in the photo had skinned knees that stuck out below pale blue summer shorts. Play equipment in the background revealed an active child.

“It is me,” Clisty agreed. She placed the envelope on the shiny black coffee table. “I’ll get us some coffee and yogurt.” She walked over to the open kitchen.

“That’s great. It’s Jason’s poker night. He’ll stop at the drive-through.” She glanced back at the picture, then around Clisty’s space. “I’m surprised you hung that picture in a room with white walls.” Becca raised her eyebrows. “Sorry, cream walls, white area rug.” She looked down. “I know I was right that time, cream sofa and side chairs, and end tables with absolutely nothing on them, no tchotchkes, nothing.” She looked again at the fireplace. “I take that back. There’s a little angel on the mantle.”

“That’s my prayer angel. At church, Grandma picked my angel and I got hers that Christmas before she and Grandpa moved to Florida.” She smiled defiantly. “Besides, no-clutter settles the mind and makes my space manageable.”

“You don’t strike me as a control freak.”

“I’m not.” Clisty removed her shoes, sat cross-legged on the sofa and pealed the lid from the raspberry yogurt. She put it on the saucer.

Becca watched and did the same, except for the leg position. “You could fool me,” she mused as she glanced around the spotless room. “You take minimalism to an extreme not often seen.”

“It’s just my home that has to be sterile.” She scooped out a spoonful of the creamy treat. “Don’t laugh. I don’t know why, but my house must be stripped of all clutter.”

“You know ... one person’s clutter ...” Becca sighed as she sipped the hot coffee. She sat the cup on its saucer and glanced at the envelope.

“Has it grown larger than the room?” Clisty teased as she watched Becca’s expression.

“I don’t know why you’re not interested in what’s inside!”

“Oh okay,” she chuckled softly. “But, it was fun for a few minutes. I watched your curiosity rise to hyperventilation level.”

“Open it!” Becca yelled.

“All right, all right,” Clisty drew out slowly. Once opened, the envelope appeared to be empty. She shook it and a square piece of plastic fell out. Pent-up grief crossed her face. She frantically snatched up the piece from the polished floor.

“What is it?”

“It’s a four-leaf clover, sealed between clear contact-paper.” She held the piece between her index finger and thumb. “My mother lines her closet shelves with clear contact.”

“But Clisty,” Becca stared at her. “What does it mean? You recognize it. I can tell.”

Clisty gently lifted the photo from the wall. “The other sweet child is Faith Sterling. She was my dearest friend. We investigated everywhere together. Mom’s only rule was to be home by suppertime. We kept the treasures we found in our clubhouse.”

“Where is she?”

“She’s gone.”

“Did they move?”

“Her parents still live over on Oak Street.” Clisty sank back on the thick, sofa pillows. “She’s ... gone.”

“She died?”

Clisty tried to shut out the terrible pictures in her mind. Suddenly, her eyes widened. She glanced at the mantle clock. “It’s seven-thirty. There’s time.” She waved the clover back and forth in anxious hands. “I have to see Jake.”

“Jake? Jake ... your cop ... Jake?”

“No ... yes. No, he’s not my cop.” She jumped up. “I found this four-leaf clover while we played. We took it home and sealed it between the contact-paper. I wrote the date on it with Magic Marker and gave it to Faith. She put it in her pocket. I told you. We were nine years old.” Clisty paced. “We started to play Monopoly then sat on the floor and watched TV.” When her eyes filled with tears, she pulled another tissue from her pocket.

“No,” Becca grabbed a fresh Kleenex from a box on the bottom shelf of the side table and handed it to her. “You’re still in camera-makeup. Now, slow down, breathe, and tell me what happened.”

Clisty blotted her tears with the tissue. “Mom had gone to the grocery. We started watching TV before we put our game away.” She sniffed and tried to clear her throat.

“Then what?”

“Someone ... a big man in a sweaty shirt ... I can still smell him ... stormed into our house.” She cringed as terrible mental images invaded her pleasant childhood memories.

“The man had a heavy beard and yellow teeth,” she shuddered. “He grabbed us both by the wrist and dragged us toward the door.” Clisty’s voice drifted to a whisper while a horror-film played in her head. “I broke free, grasped Faith’s hand and tried to pull her back; but, he was too big. I slipped on the Monopoly board and slid on a few cards and game pieces. With a thud, I fell to the floor but quickly scrambled to my feet, ran into the bathroom and locked the door. I heard the man snort something like, ‘I got what I came for,’ and stormed out the door with Faith.”

“Oh, Clisty, how horrible! Where did they find her?”

“They didn’t,” she whispered. “She just vanished. It’s been eighteen years. Her family has never given up,” Clisty choked on her tears. “I tried to save her.” With a raspy voice she added, “With Grandma’s angel at our house and my angel on her kitchen windowsill, Grandma prayed for me every day.” She closed her eyes and slipped back into dark, frightening memories. “I know the prayers helped.”

“Clisty, you were a child.”

”I know. But, Becca, that witness in the surveillance video on the news at six ... those eyes ... that was Faith. I’m positive of it.” She looked at the clover in her hand and shouted, “This four-leaf clover proves she’s alive! She sent it to me so I would look for her. Becca, I know where she is!”

News at Eleven

I have completed the second, or first depending on how you look at it, in my Heartland News and Mysteries series and am in search of an agent. To remind my readers of what Clisty Sinclair went through to get her great promotion, I will re-post the book that set it all in motion, News at Eleven, beginning on Friday. So many readers asked for a sequel, I am developing an entire series.

Let your friends know and watch for the first chapter on Friday and each Friday following. If we can get an overflowing number of readers, it may help a publisher to come on board. Happy reading!

Encountering Harvey from a Distance

The wind blew and the rain came but still our daughter’s home in Katy, just outside Houston, Texas remained dry, except for the roof above our grandson Luke’s room. As the downpour continued Donna and Mark hunkered down in their well-lit and safe home hoping the wind would not take off more of their roofing shingles. I wanted them to leave as soon as the news announced the approach of hurricane Harvey but the local authorities repeatedly said they should remain. All I could do was pray.

Then the Corp of Engineers released the deep waters of a nearby reservoir and everything changed. When the water rose and the only way out was by boat, the “Cajun Navy” came and plucked them out of their home with nothing but their billfolds, insurance papers and Oliver their dog. Luke, a college student, found himself again in his former junior high school building, their new safe refuge.

That night they slept on the floor with Luke under a cafeteria table. Little Ollie, alert to it all, cozied down beside Donna. Mark slept about four hours that night and woke up to begin the FEMA application. They were offered a rental if they could get there right away but all three cars were under water.

Then the prayers of family and friends arrived in Heaven. A Facebook friend from Ohio I’ll call Sue, contacted me when she saw my post about Donna and her family’s home. She had a friend in Katy, I’ll call Mary, whose home stood on higher ground and she volunteered to contact her on Donna and Mark’s behalf. By the time I answered Mary, another couple with two young children offered Donna, Mark and Luke two bedrooms in the upstairs of their home.

Sue contacted me to check on the safety and situation of my family. As we FB chatted, she revealed that she too was originally from Ohio. Amazingly, we lived a few miles from Sue and Mary when my husband was in graduate school … and our four children, including Donna, went to the same Ohio school they attended.

A day later, a PTO vice president from the elementary school one of our sons attended there in Ohio messaged me concerning an assistance program they wanted to implement for a teacher and school in the Houston area. She contacted her former first grade teacher, Mary, in Katy, Texas and Mary gave her my name. She was so excited that she would be able to tell the PTO they would be helping someone who had been part of their school system.

My husband and I wanted to immediately help with clothes. The next day I transferred some money from our account to Donna and Mark’s bank for dry socks and whatever they needed. The bank didn’t charge the usual fee since it was going to Houston. A few days later, Bill and I went to a local hardware store to get some cleaning supplies Donna and Mark couldn’t get in Katy. Another couple shopping in the store heard us discussing which mosquito spray to buy and left a twenty dollar bill at the cash register to help pay for the items we were shipping.

I won’t tell you of the many times when angel wings brushed Donna and Mark’s shoulders. Those are their stories to tell. But, I had to let you know that God answers the simplest prayer. We know, because we experienced Harvey from afar and yet God listened and answered in His own precious way.

Matthew 10:30-31  “But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows.”

A Sunny Day with McCloud - Doris Gaines Rapp - Copyright 2017 Doris Gaines Rapp

Sunny Cavanaugh arrived at the Crown Realty Office just in time to pick up the key to 2458 Stoney Hawk Drive. The open house would begin in seventeen minutes and the two story stucco home was twenty minutes to the south. In a flash, she darted in, grabbed the key off the hook and started out again.

“Hey Cavanaugh, how about at ride?” Mike McCloud called after her just as she opened the door.

“Sorry, Mike,” she groaned, “I’m late.” Right, she was late. The truth was … she felt trapped every time she was stuck talking to him. He was absolutely obnoxious, raining on every idea for marketing the company’s large inventory of homes she came up with. Besides, with their past, she wasn’t sure if she could ever forgive him. And, she didn’t want to try. She had gotten used to holding onto anger and hurt feelings. They were like old friends.

“Late is okay … just slow down on Stoney Hawk and I’ll jump out,” he said with a grin.

Sunny stopped in mid-stride, her face pinched. “Stoney Hawk? Why are you going to Stoney Hawk?”

His jaw dropped mockingly, “An open house. Have you ever been to an open house?”

“Do you want a ride? Or, do you want to have a smart mouth?” Sunny growled. “That open house is mine, Mike.”

“I know. Kevin Crown gave the opening to you.” Mike waved his arms around as he backed out of the building. “That’s a huge house. I thought you could use some help.”

“You mean, that’s a huge commission,” she snapped back, pulling the car key from her pocket.

“I’ll share it with you,” he offered.

She stopped again and stared at him, gritting her teeth. “Did you just say you’re going to hijack my showing and then share some of the money with me?”

He shook his head and attempted to explain his brilliant plan differently. “Cavanaugh, we’ve known each other since the sixth grade. You know Stoney Hawk is in my neighborhood. I know the house we’re listing. My Uncle Jamison lived there before he moved to Colorado last week. I grew up on the next street.”

“And, you know, I grew up next door to you, so it’s my neighborhood, too.” She shook her head, her sunny disposition faded. “We used to be best friends, Mikey. What happened?”

He shrugged and looked away. “We grew up I guess.”

She stopped again and pulled on the sleeve of his denim jacket. “We were even closer when we grew up … until you met Heather.”

“Heather?” he stumbled over her name. “Never mind. Give me the keys. I’ll drive.”

“You want to drive my car?” she gasped. “Never mind, Mike … you can walk.”

“No, no, no,” Mike sputtered out. “I’m sorry. What was I thinking? You can drive.”

Again she stopped, putting her fists on her waist. “You’re giving me permission to drive my own car?”

Mike hung his head. “This isn’t going well,” he murmured to himself. “Forget I even opened my mouth.” He rubbed his chin and began again. “Hey, Cavanaugh. How about a ride? I could help you with the open house.”

Sunny hurried toward the parking lot, thinking up a plan as she walked. “Okay, I’ll agree to this … if, and listen carefully, I did say … if … if the house sells for above the asking price within one week of the open house, we’ll share the commission.”

“Wow,” he teased, “your generosity is underwhelming.” He thought for a minute and added, “That’s not a bad idea.” He looked at the row of cars and added. “Which one?”

“Right here,” Sunny said as she pushed the remote button. “It’s new.”

“This one?” Mike shouted, pointing at a small red and white vehicle. “This isn’t a car. It’s a baby shoe with a steering wheel. You don’t get in. You put it on,” he gulped.

She slammed the flat of her hand on the car’s roof. “Do you want a ride or not?”

“Yes,” he snapped back. “I want a ride.”

They both got in the little two door car. Sunny thought it best to not talk at all. It was a beautiful summer day and she just wanted to enjoy it. The streets, lined with mature oak trees whose branches draped over the street and met in the middle, looked like a tall green arch. Sunny thought of the wedding arbor she had planned and cringed. “Oh no,” she gasped.

“What’s wrong?” Mike asked.

“It’s the fourteenth,” she whispered as tears gathered in her eyes. “This would have been our third Anniversary.”

“I know,” he said as his face softened. “I wake up every year … knowing it’s the fourteenth.”

She looked over at him as she parked in the drive of 2458. “I didn’t know you remembered.”

“We were bound together since we were both twelve,” he said as the car seemed to grow smaller. “Who gave you your nickname … Sunny?”

“You did,” she said as she felt her cheeks grow hot. Mike was sitting too close for her to be able to keep up her wall.

“Growing up, every time I saw you, it was like the clouds parted and the sun came out,” he said as he started to reach for her hand. “You know the McCloud’s moto … if you don’t see clouds, you don’t see a McCloud.”

Sunny smiled a little and wished she hadn’t. “Your father certainly had a negative view on life.”

“Still does,” he said as he chuckled. “Growing up, you were my daily inoculation against having the ain’t- it-awfuls metastasize into my whole being.”

Sunny didn’t say anything. If she did, her entire life might flood back in. Her childhood with Mike was so happy it hurt.

“Do you have any idea how long you’re going to hate me?” he whispered.

“Hate you?” She started to put her hand on the door handle to get out and then paused. “You know I’ve never hated anyone in my life.”

“What do you call three years of silence?”

She smiled again. “Peace.”

“Sunny,” he began as he took her hand. “I haven’t been at peace for three years. Maybe that’s why you can’t stand to be around me anymore.”

“I never said that,” she denied and then remembered her very thoughts when he asked for a ride. “It’s just that you’ve gotten so sassy.”

“It’s called arrested development I guess. I stopped growing when you stopped talking to me … three years ago yesterday.”

“I saw you kissing Heather Alford, Mike,” she blurted out, sounding more like angst than anger.

“No you didn’t. You saw Heather Alford kissing me.” When I pushed her away, you had already left. Then, when I finally found you down by the lake, you wouldn’t talk to me.”

“My world had crumbled, Mike. Nothing was safe and predictable anymore.”

“Except your pain,” he said quietly. “Your pain was the only feeling you recognized.”

She thought for a minute and asked, “You didn’t kiss Heather?”

“Nope.” He pulled her fingers to his lips. “Whenever you’re ready to smile again, I could sure use the sunshine.”

She sighed and smiled. “I do remember the sunny days. And … I like them better. If you’ll stop acting like a junior higher, I’ll stop thinking of you as a cloud, Mike McCloud.”

It turned into a beautiful day. She finally decided it was easier to carry around a happy heart, than one stuffed with pain. She chose to be Sunny again.

To Love or Love Not - Doris Gaines Rapp - Copyright 2017 Doris Gaines Rapp

Dr. Cherise Owens stood by her office window and surveyed the quad. It was a beautiful spring day. Violet irises bloomed in flower beds next to opening yellow and red tulips. The sweet aroma of freshly mowed grass drifted through the partially open casement. She inhaled deeply and hoped the light breeze would carry her through the busy day ahead. She would be interviewing new professors for one open position in the Sociology Department. Rats. She’d have to sit through a lunch with Department Chair candidate Dr. Jack Strand; the author of that awful book, When Adam was a Man.

“Dr. Owens,” her secretary said as she stuck her head into the University President’s office. “It’s 11:45. You wanted to walk over to the Oak Room.”

“Love the Oak Room. Dread this lunch,” Cherise moaned as she collected her keys and small cross-body purse.

“I know,” Dee Dee sympathized. “Focus on the food and less on the fool.”

“Dee Dee, you’re not calling our esteemed colleague and candidate for a faculty position, Dr. Jack Strand, a fool are you?”

“Me?” the secretary denied with her hand to her chest. “Never.”

“But, if you were,” the President smiled coyly, “I would agree.”

Cherise walked out the door and turned her chin upward, bathing her face in sunlight. It could not have been a more glorious day. Her heels clicked along the sidewalk, prompting a desire to dance, but she resisted the temptation. Strong willed, she never gave into silly immature thoughts that crossed her mind. Still, she was dancing in her head as she arrived at the University Restaurant door, side-stepping in rhythm to her internal music, and went in.

Alfred Newday, the Dean of Students, waved from a white cloth-covered table to the left. Alfred stood, pulling out the chair beside him. Cherise would sit next to a man who looked like the image on his book jacket. She was disappointed when she saw he was even more handsome than his picture. Rats. As Cherise got to the table, Jack Strand stood up.

Facing eye to eye, she came into contact with warmth that set her toes on fire. She couldn’t hide her attraction to him and more’s the pity, Dr. Strand noticed and smiled.

“You must be Jack Strand,” she said as she tried to play it lightly.

“Since no one else wanted the part, then, yes I must be he,” Strand continued to smile like a cat that just trapped the house mouse.

“A sense of humor,” she declared to the other three at the table. Besides the Dean, two professors from the Sociology Department joined them for lunch. “Humor will please the students.”

“Then . . . I’m hired?” Strand asked, still smiling, still teasing.

Assistant Professor Scrimshire looked at Strand with surprise. “Well then, if no one cares, I’d like to eat before we adjourn.”

“We’re not in that much of a hurry,” Dr. Owens announced with her hand held up to slow down the meeting.

“Would you like the usual Tuesday special?” the server asked the President.

Cherise looked up at the waitress and avoided Strand. “Yes, that’s fine. Thanks.”

Scrimshire and the other professor ordered the chicken salad plate; the Dean chose a spinach and ham quiche. Strand looked around the table and ordered BBQ pork with mashed potatoes and fresh corn.

As the waitress stepped away, Strand mused aloud, “Ah, another one who needs to control life. I’ll bet Mr. Cherise Owens has a hard time with that.”

“You have a dangerous interview style for someone applying for a job at an institution where people actually think before they speak,” Owens responded politely yet firmly.

Scrimshire glared. “Bob Owens died three years ago, from complications following his injuries at the Boston Marathon bombing. He was an accomplished runner.”

“I am so sorry,” Jack said, touching Cherise’s hand as it rested on the table. “Sometimes I forget and actually believe my reputation.”

“The young men who take your class need a strong male figure here at the university. That’s why we’re interviewing you,” Dr. Owens explained, still unable to look at Strand without exposing her attraction to him.

“Ah yes, the wussification of American men.”

“I happen to agree with you, Dr. Strand,” Dr. Owens agreed. “My husband was a real man. He was strong enough to stand in the gap between our home and the world, and gentle enough to make me feel loved every day of our marriage.”

“And, you miss that,” Jack whispered as the server brought a pot of coffee to the table. “Cherise means darling.”

Cherise didn’t respond. However, the warmth of his understanding filled her with a revived joy. “Have you never heard of sexual harassment, Dr. Strand?” she whispered back. As she poured coffee into her cup, she continued, including everyone in the conversation. “I think this committee wants to know something far more current than if Adam was a man or a wimp. Some young men know only two extremes – sissy and control freak. What do you have to add to their edification so they can hit a happy medium?”

Jack Strand sat back and grinned as the server placed a plate filled with BBQ pork and a mound of white potatoes in front of Cherise Owens. “You’re my kind of girl,” he said. “You appreciate real food.”

The sweet tangy smell of the BBQ sauce rose like a cloud over the table. When the server put Strand’s order down, Cherise smiled but chose to avert his eyes. “I guess you can make a few wise choices after all.”

“That’s fine,” the Dean added. “But, I’d still like an answer to Dr. Owens’ question.”

“What question is that?” Strand asked with a blank expression.

Cherise turned and looked Strand square in the eyes. “If you were hired as Chair of the Sociology Department, what would you teach your students, especially the young men, about being strong and yet not controlling?”

Jack Strand focused his gaze on Cherise, as if there were no others at the table. “I would teach them to be in control of themselves and not dominate others. They would learn that it’s the greatest joy to encourage others to be the very best ‘them’ they can be. They would know that control and love are mutually exclusive. One cannot control another and love them at the same time. True love is the only goal in life worth pursuing and when one finds it, it will define their life. That is the meaning of being a real man.”

Cherise groaned inside. “I fear we may have some challenging faculty meetings in the next few years . . . if we hire you, Dr. Strand.”

“But, they would be the most exciting meetings of your career,” Jack said as their eyes met.

             Rats! She whispered. 

With New Eyes - Doris Gaines Rapp - Copyright 2017 Doris Gaines Rapp

Mama received her daily letter from Grandma one summer afternoon. I had gotten to the mailbox first. I’d skipped out to the edge of the road in front of the house and opened the oversized box the minute the mailman had cleared the end of the driveway. I knew it was from her before I even looked at the envelope. Along the edge was a row of tiny holes I could feel with my fingers. More important, Grandma could feel them. Grandma had cataracts when cataracts meant blindness. Doctors were doing that kind of surgery but it wasn’t always successful. She waited through a world of darkness before her operation.

“Mama, you have a letter,” I hollered as I banged in through the screen door and plopped myself down onto the chair near the floor-model TV set with doors that closed in the center.

My mother walked in from the kitchen carrying two hand-woven pot holders I made for her. It smelled like she had put a pot roast in the oven for supper. She was probably checking on it. I loved “pull-apart meat” with potatoes and carrots cooked until the flavor permeated the vegetables and all the air around it. “Let’s see,” she exhaled slowly as she took the letter and sat down.

I could see from the sheets of stationary that Grandma had filled two pages. There were pin holes down both sides.

Here’s what she’d do. Grandma would write a sentence on the paper, put a straight pin at the end of the line, remove the pin from the beginning of the sentence she had just written, reinsert the pin at the beginning of a new line, feel for the pin at the end of the sentence and repeat until she had filled the page. Sometimes the lines ran into each other or even crossed, but no one said anything to Grandma. She hadn’t said, “I can’t do it.” She found another way to write.

“What’s she doing?” I asked.

“Oh, you know, the usual,” Mama answered as she folded over the pieces of paper. “She sits by the window on school days and listens to the laughter of neighborhood children as they walk home from school.”

“Oh, yeah,” I said. “But this is summer vacation. What does she do now?”

“The ball games,” Mama said and smiled. “They air every home game of the Cincinnati Reds. She doesn’t miss one of them.”

“Mama . . . she can’t see the TV.” I remember rolling my eyes and now wish I hadn’t. Because, it’s what Mama said next that really told me how Grandma could see.

“Grandma can see in her own way,” Mama told me.

There’s only one way to see, I thought but didn’t sass back.

“Your grandmother has watched every baseball game since they started televising them. She knows every player by name. Two of her favorites are a catcher, Smoky Burgess, and one of the pitchers, Joe Nuxhall. He throws and bats left handed, like Grandpa is left handed. Since your grandmother is tall, she likes it that Nuxhall is 6 foot 3.”

“Grandpa isn’t tall. He’s pretty short, like me,” I thought out loud.

“Grandma wouldn’t want you to mention that.”

“Okay,” I agreed but didn’t see why that had to be a secret. Everyone could see how tall my grandfather was.

“Will you come help me set the table?” she asked as she got up and started through the dining room where we ate company dinner.

There was a breakfast nook off the kitchen where my chalk board hung for drawing on while Mama cooked and where the kitchen table sat. I opened the tall cabinet beside the table and took out the blue and white willow dishes we used for every day.

“Okay, Mama, finish. There has to be more. Grandma cannot see the baseball players even if she doesn’t miss any of the games. So, how does she see the games?”

“Well, like I knew that you would draw a picture of a rose bud on the board before you began setting the table. I also knew you would take the plates out first, then the cups and finally the saucers. How do I know all of that? Because . . . I know you. Grandma saw all the games while she could still see. Now, she listens to the play-by-play commentary and watches in her mind . . . because she knows the players and how they play.”

“Is that like God? He can see us because he knows us?”

“I’d say so,” Mama answered as she took a loaf of bread out of the red flowered bread box and put the loaf on the counter top. “Get out a saucer for the bread, please,” she said as she rinsed out the coffee pot before filling it again. “God knows what we think and do. And, he gives us the chance to change our mind and do something or think something even better, because He’s outside of time. He knows what we did; what we do; and what we decided to do over.”

“Wow, He really has new eyes.”

“We all have a new kind of eyes,” Mama said as she put some sweet smelling coffee in the pot, “when we see things God’s way.”

I never knew until I was older, how much I learned from setting the table with Mama.

Grandpa’s Shoes - Copyright 2017 Doris Gaines Rapp

One day, when I was nine, I noticed my grandpa’s shoes. They were black leather with wing-tipped toes and funny boot lace hooks to help fasten the shoes more tightly around his ankle. My daddy didn’t wear such high-top shoes as those.

Grandma and Grandpa came down every other Sunday and Daddy would take us up there on the alternate Sabbath. One Sunday afternoon, after lunch, Grandpa sat in the living room in the side-chair with the round red foot stool next to it with his feet propped up. Lounging on the floor in front of the TV, I was low enough to get a real good look at those shoes. Don’t misunderstand, Mamma didn’t allow television programs to drown out company conversation, so the sound was off. But, I could be entertained with the black and white pictures as they danced across the screen.

Grandpa was always very quiet, shy actually. Mostly, he sat and listened to Momma and Grandma talk about the ordinarily activities of their day. Daddy usually fell asleep on the couch with one leg plopped up over the sofa’s back.

The problem was I didn’t talk much either. So, I’d just watch Grandpa and think about his choice in foot wear. I guess we were both introverts. As an example, when I was really little, Grandma and Grandpa still lived on the farm.

Did you notice what I said? We always announced Grandma’s name first since she was the one Momma talked to. So, it was Grandma’s house, but Grandpa’s farm. I’d follow him out to the barn to check on Dolly, the old retired plow horse, but I don’t remember talking to him. I can’t even remember the sound of his voice, but he was Grandpa and I loved him.

It was those shoes I wondered about. If I had thought to actually ask him a question, now, I can think of many I may have asked.

-        “Grandpa, do your toes feel comfortable with your feet all bound up like that?”

-        “Tell me where you find shoes like that. I shop with Momma and I’ve never seen that kind anywhere. They must come from a farm store up near your house.”

-        “Did you wear those shoes because you twisted your ankle? I sprain mine real easy.”

-        “Those shoes remind me of Albert Swartz’s clodhoppers he wears to school. Teacher doesn’t like those shoes because the hooks scrape the desk chair when he sits on his feet in class.”

-        “Do you like the high-tops because they remind you of your work shoes? You’re a great farmer.” Then, I could get him to talk more by asking him about Dolly, how she’s doin’ and if she misses me.

Come to think about it, Grandpa did answer questions about the crops. You want to hear something amazing? Grandpa could drive by any field in the county and name the green shoots that were coming up, almost as soon as they pushed through the ground. I had no idea what was growing out there in all that dirt. Still, I could have gotten him to talk more, if I had thought to ask him about it. I had no idea that the green of field corn was different from that of soy beans, or that wheat can grow in the winter when it’s cold.

The point is if I had just asked him about those shoes, we may have talked about much more. As an adult I know—if you don’t know what an Extravert is thinking it’s because you haven’t been listening. And, if you don’t know what an Introvert is thinking, it’s because you haven’t asked them.”

Now, I think about Grandma and Grandpa often. After they moved into town off the farm, Grandpa drove out there almost every day. When Grandma was blind with cataracts, he would help her sweep the carpets and fix a hearty supper. One day I heard Grandma complain to Momma that Grandpa had started walking down the alley to a filling station and garage where he’d visit with the neighborhood men and drink a cola. She hoped he wouldn’t get into any trouble down there. Grandpa? I couldn’t imagine such a thing—not trouble—Grandpa talking.

Oh, the things I wish I had asked him when I was nine, “Tell me about . . .“ questions. About his parents; the home he grew up in; would he describe his room; what he liked to read when I saw him with a book in his hand; what was the name of his dog when he was ten; did he like chocolate as much as I did; and . . . where on earth did he get those shoes.