Doris
Gaines Rapp
“Yes, Mom,” Charity said,
pretending frustration. “I’m getting plenty of sunshine. In fact, I was just
getting ready to go out and work in my garden plot.”
“Good,”
her mother sighed. “The doctor said you need more sunlight. Sitting at a
computer all day isn’t good for anyone. The glowing light from your devices
doesn’t count.”
“Mother,
I’m a writer. I write at a computer,” she snapped back.
“I know
what you do, but it cannot be all you
do.” Sandy Couchman argued gently. Then she laughed and added, “I thought only
men defined themselves by their occupation.”
“Mother,”
Charity moaned, “don’t be archaic. Women have important careers too.”
“I know
they do . . . we do. Remember, I am the most successful realtor in Overlook.
But, I consider myself smarter than to think I’m only a realtor. I’m a wife, mother, sister, daughter, and friend.
Each of those roles requires time and effort. I don’t sell houses eighteen
hours a day.”
“And I
don’t—” Charity began and stopped, “well . . . maybe I do.” She quickly took a
breath and began again. “But . . . I have deadlines.”
“Well
then, I’ll let you get back to the few minutes you have allocated for
sunshine.” Sandy stopped and thought back. “Wait, what garden plot?”
“My
building has an old parking lot across the street. They bought the property for
future expansion but they aren’t going to begin for a few years. They brought
in a guy with a plow, a couple loads of topsoil and plotted off the ground for
residents who want to plant a garden. I got my name in early for a plot.”
“Honey,
that’s great. What are you planting?” her mother asked.
“The
first thing I put in was rhubarb, then some other vegetables,” Charity said.
“Rhubarb?”
“Now,
don’t make fun of me, Mom. Just because you and Dad don’t like it, doesn’t mean
I don’t.” As she stood by the front window talking on the phone, she saw the
man from apartment 4C going across the street to the new garden. “Mom, gotta
run. I’ll call you another time.”
Charity gathered
up her door key from the desk and slipped it into her pocket. With her foot up
on the desk chair, she finished tying her shoes. Then, she grabbed the hoe she
had stuck into the umbrella stand in the entry hall, hurried out and locked the
door quickly before heading to the elevator. “Hope he’s gone,” she whispered to
herself. Thank goodness the elevator was empty except for Charity. She didn’t
want to be caught talking to herself, especially since she wasn’t talking much
to anyone lately.
When the
doors opened on the first floor Charity started to move forward but caught the
long handle of the hoe in the door. She checked the lobby for anyone who might
have seen the mishap and then berated herself for caring what other thought
about her.
Outside,
she would never have admitted it, but the morning sun felt wonderful. Bright
ribbons of light danced through the trees and cast their life-giving energy on
each plot, carefully marked off by white field paint. One man said it looked
like stripes on a football field. Charity believed it was a city-man’s way of
validating gardening.
Looking
around, she didn’t see Mr. 4C so she quickly forgot about him. At the end of
garden plot 4A, marked with a small sign at the end of the strip, she dug her
hoe into the soil and loosened the few weeds that had invaded in spotty
patches.
“Good
morning,” a deep voice hummed from the next space.
Charity
said nothing but smacked the garden tool down on the dirt harder than before.
Somehow, Mr. 4C, tall and muscular, had managed to block out the song of the
birds high up in the trees with the expression of only two words.
“It’s a
great day, isn’t it?” he repeated.
“If I
had wanted to talk to you, I would have said something when you spoke the first
time,” she sassed back without looking up.
“I see
you’ve planted rhubarb,” he observed, ignoring her comment. “I like it too,
even if it is kinda tart.”
Again,
she said nothing and continued to weed her garden plot.
“Tartness
can be overcome with some sugar, or other sweetness like honey,” he added.
“Are you
trying to be annoying or does it naturally flow out of you with no effort on
your part?” she asked as she stopped and leaned with folded hands on the top of
her hoe.
“You
look tired already,” he observed. “Can I help you?”
“Stick
to your own garden, Mr. 4C.,” she snapped back.
“Miss .
. . 4A,” he began, “you don’t know me, so I know your anger cannot be directed
at me. I don’t have to react or dish anger back at you; because, it isn’t about
me. Charity, your vindictiveness is about you.”
“How do
you know my name? Have you been stalking me?” she demanded.
“Stalking?
I live across the hall from you. And, by the way, your name is on your mailbox
down in the lobby,” he answered calmly.
“You
aren’t supposed to notice other people’s names,” she sputtered; unable to come
up with another argument fast enough to satisfy her need to put him in his
place.
“Okay .
. . I’m going back up to my apartment and put on the coffee pot. When you’re
ready to talk about what’s bothering you, I’ll be there.”
“Not
likely,” she mumbled without looking up from her rhubarb patch. She stopped and
put one hand on her hip, “I thought you came down to work in your garden.”
“I have
been cultivating something for several weeks, if you haven’t noticed,” he
answered and smiled warmly.
Charity
didn’t respond. What could she say? As 4C walked away, she whispered to herself,
“Okay, so you have a way with words. Is that supposed to impress me?”
•••
Later, Charity slumped at
her desk for another hour, staring aimlessly at her computer. She got up and
went over to the open kitchen. Reaching for the coffee pot, she tipped it up
over her cup. Nothing. The pot was empty.
Slamming the pot on the counter, she shuddered, dreading
to check for glass breakage. Noting that the carafe was intact, she placed it
carefully in the sink.
“Coffee
. . .” she moaned. “I need coffee. I’m tired. I have brain drain. I can’t
concentrate and I have an impending deadline.” She drifted around her apartment
grumbling, “The only coffee in Overlook cannot possibly be just across the
hall.”
She
checked her pocket for her key; slowly went out into the hall and knocked on
4C’s door. Housekeeping was running the sweeper a few doors down. The smell of
carpet dust hung in the air.
When the
door opened she bristled and darted inside. “It smells dusty out there,” she
announced as she pushed past him. “I’m not going to call you, Mr. 4C any
longer,” she grumbled. “What’s your name?”
“J.D. Stone,”
he said, watching her take over his space.
Charity
determined the walls, covered in posters of football player and other sports
luminaries, looked like a well decorated frat room. “Another little boy who never grew up, I
see.”
“Actually,
they’re my clients. I’m a sports agent. These,” he gestured toward the wall
hangings, “are my clients. I’ve only been in the business for a few years but .
. . I’m doing well.”
“Jared
Stone?” she asked in amazement.
“Now,
how do you know the name of an athletes’ agent?” he asked, his eyes twinkling.
He went over to the counter and poured a mug full of coffee. “I’m guessing this
is what you came for. And, I repeat, are you a sports fan?”
“No,”
she drug out, “I’m a writer.”
J.D.
pointed to a grouping of chairs around a small sofa. He tossed a pillow to the
end of the couch and motioned for her to sit down.
She
slowly kicked off her shoes, sat down and crossed her legs in front of her. “I
wrote a novel last year and did some research on all aspects of sports. It’s about
a country girl and a baseball player—A Diamond . . .”
“From
the Diamond,” J.D. finished for her.
Charity
sipped her coffee and smiled. “How did you . . .?”
“My
sister wanted the book for Christmas,” he said with a sheepish grin.
“She has
good taste,” Charity offered.
“And me?
My taste?” he asked.
“You have
good taste in sisters,” she said with a laugh.
“And . .
. friends,” he eyed her carefully over his coffee cup.
“I’d
hardly call us friends,” she said as she straightened. “We just met.”
“You’re
right, of course. But, I hope we can build a fast friendship. And, to that end,
I meant it when I told you I’d be happy to listen to what is bothering you.”
“I . . .
I’m sorry, I seem to begin every sentence with ‘I.’ Wow . . . what is bothering
me?” She unfolded her legs and winced in pain. “I’m stiff,” she admitted. J.D.
said nothing but listened intently. “My doctor calls it SAD,” she opened up.
“What are you sad about?” he asked softly.
“Not sad
. . . seasonal affective disorder, with capital letters, S.A.D. The symptoms
include depression, stiff muscles, with extreme fatigue. Also, something that frustrates me completely
. . . fuzzy thinking with an inability to concentrate,” she explained as tears
willed up in her eyes. “J.D., I’m a writer. I’m at my computer all day. I can’t
just sit in a near-stupor every day.”
“Did
your doctor suggest any treatment?”
“She recommended
medication if I wanted to take it, moderate exercise and sunshine every day,”
she said with a mocking snicker. “How do I make the sun shine every day?”
“On days
when the sun does shine . . . you spend
some time in your garden,” J.D. concluded. “And . . . when the sun doesn’t
shine?” he asked.
“I wait,
sometimes weeks for the sun to come out again.” Her voice, edged with anger,
cut into the conversation.
“Well,
if waiting works . . .” he began.
“I know
. . . if it works, keep it up. If it doesn’t, stop it,” she sighed deeply. “I’ve
listen to all the guru tapes, too.”
“So . .
. do you stop it?” His expression was different from others. Rather than laughing
at her, he seemed to understand.
“No, I
keep on keeping on, trying to write, hoping to clear my head.”
“According
to some pretty big athletes I represent, there are high potency vitamins, lamps
with bright bulbs, exercises, even a few days in Florida during the dreary
times of the year would help,” he suggested.
“My
parents spend the winter in Florida,” she admitted reluctantly.
“You
could spend a few weeks with them,” he offered.
She
sipped her coffee and remained silent for a minute. “Then, I’d have to admit
that Mom is right.”
“Would
that be so bad?” he whispered.
“Yes,” Charity
spit out. “No,” she said as she changed her mind. “I guess not.”
“Which
is worse, your mother being right or SAD?”
“Okay .
. . okay,” she agreed with a new positive lilt to her voice.
“Your garden
plot does look nice,” he quickly changed the subject from surrender to
accomplishment. “It’s easy to see you take good care of it.”
“So far,
the rhubarb has started to come up,” she sighed. “My parents don’t like it. I
planted a little.”
“Rhubarb
is very tart but some sweetness makes it wonderful.” J.D. smiled broadly. “Just
like people.”
Charity
blushed. “I haven’t had the energy to include other people in my life . . . men
in particular. I may be willing to try again.”
“You can
start with one close by . . . no energy wasted getting there,” he said and
laughed.
“Thank you, J.D.” she agreed as her expression
softened. “When the rhubarb is ripe, I’ll make us a pie,” she offered. “It should
be sweet by harvest time.”
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